By Ariane on Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Almost every email, comment, private message, etc. I got about these posts was some form of this (paraphrased): "Wow, thank you for writing about this, I have totally been struggling with this so much and it's a relief to know I am not alone and/or get some info or insight about it."
The reason this surprised me is that even now, after having this sort of experience with previous posts, I still often feel like I really am pretty alone in dealing with these things. I feel like I'm really going out on a limb by writing about them publicly. But again and again, I get these responses from...Read more...
By Ariane on Thursday, June 6, 2013
Disclaimer: I'm (obviously?) not a trained medical professional, so don't take my advice at face value, do your own research, etc. and see a real doctor if you think you are sick before self-treating! Also, for what it's worth, I bought this book with my own money and was not paid in any way to write this post.
I found this book - "Are You Tired and Wired?" by Nurse Practitioner Marcelle Pick in a bookstore last winter, and little did I know how much it was going to mean to me. I'd been diagnosed with adrenal fatigue, so when I saw it I thought it might help me understand further what it is and how it works, and...Read more...
By Ariane on Saturday, June 1, 2013
How to be friends. This is something that I thought I knew how to do. The last year upon the last five years has got me seriously doubting this... It turns out I most likely know nothing.
I recently got on the Lifeboat boat, they've been asking interesting questions and writing interesting stories about friendship. There's a lot packed into their Lifeboat Practices... there's some real gold in there. There are also some harsh truths they've unearthed, truths that make me realize at least I'm not alone in my struggles.
But my question is this: What do you do when the people who you think are your people don't show up, don't respond (nevermind reciprocate),...Read more...
By Ariane on Monday, May 13, 2013
Bruno woke me out of a deep sleep last night around 1:30am saying, "Ariane... Ariane... What is that? What's that sound??" In my semi conscious state I started listening... to the sound of someone pacing back and forth upstairs! What?? What is going on?? We sat in bed frozen, listening...
But something wasn't quite right - the pacing was really only along the very front edge of the room... and then I heard the familiar sound of nails. Like a dog skidding on linoleum. And then jumping and skidding some more. Quickly it made sense that this pacing was not happening inside the room upstairs but along the balcony that sits right along the edge of it, right above our bedroom. And that the pacer was likely not human.
Of course, we were still pretty on edge, not being 100%...Read more...
By Ariane on Friday, May 10, 2013
Today was the final day of a six week self-portraiture course I was taking, called You Are Your Own Muse, taught by local photographer Vivienne McMaster. I found out about Vivienne's courses through a friend who had taken one of her previous courses, and decided to sign up. I've been finding having some daily prompts and extra motivation to do creative work very helpful in keeping my momentum after finally getting out of my creative paralysis last fall!
Vivienne teaches both online and in-person workshops and courses, and she puts a very special focus on cultivating self-love and self-compassion through self-portraiture. I really did find that it was a great and effective practice to add to my self-love toolbox....Read more...
By Ariane on Thursday, May 2, 2013
Oh, green bike. How I love you. But it's just not working for me, and honestly we just don't have space for an extra (but pretty) bike. We're gonna have to go our separate ways...
I bought this bike 5 years ago, after moving to the West End, to ride around the neighbourhood and the sea wall. And it was a great bike for that! But having chronic pain and fatigue issues, even with lots of gears, hills are not my friend, and in all honesty the bike is about 2 inches too big for me (it probably shouldn't have been sold to me in the first place but I...Read more...
By Ariane on Saturday, April 27, 2013
Happy spring everyone!
ps. Bruno is officially a Canadian permanent resident as of yesterday, hooray!
By Ariane on Thursday, March 21, 2013
I wrote this post a week ago, but I didn't post it. I knew deep down that it wasn't quite sitting right. And my gut was right, since I pretty much had to rewrite half of it before posting it today.
Back in September, I wrote about my plan for the fall. I was pretty jazzed about it. Yes, jazzed. But I never really told you about what happened, did I...
Emily Carr - going to art school! NOT.
Well, my little foray into "art school" didn't go exactly as planned. The textile design class - the one I was most looking forward to - was canceled last minute. The drawing class (the other early fall class) was intolerable. The painting class later in the fall was to be taught by the same instructor. I dropped both. I decided to drop...Read more...
By Ariane on Thursday, February 28, 2013
This building is part of VGH, you wouldn't know how pretty it is from the outside. Sitting there, it was hard not to notice I was the youngest person for miles around who didn't actually work there. I was there to get a second opinion on my laryngeal granuloma.
I gave my history twice with my easily worn out voice (to the resident, then the doctor), had my throat and neck palpated three times extremely roughly (by the resident, then the doctor, then the resident again), and went through getting gagged twice (by the resident and then the doctor) by an apparently better but much more uncomfortable throat camera than the kind they usually shove through your sinus. (This one was just a big non-flexible metal stick...Read more...
By Ariane on Sunday, February 10, 2013
This is a hard post to write. It might be a hard post to read. It might offend, it might confuse. And honestly, if it does either, I'm not really sorry at all.
I've had a couple brave friends confess to me lately that sometimes when I talk about my health (either in person or online), sometimes they don't know what to say. That they feel bad for what I'm going through and want to support me, but don't know how to do that, or what I need.
It's hard to talk to people who are chronically ill if you haven't experienced it yourself. (I won't speak for anyone with a terminal illness, as I very thankfully haven't had to go down that road myself). But it's not impossible. All you need is an open mind, and the willingness to throw away your assumptions or beliefs about what they...Read more...